Title: This Is Not a Love Letter
Author: Kim Purcell
Synopsis: One week. That’s all Jessie said. A one-week break to get some perspective before graduation, before she and her boyfriend, Chris, would have to make all the big, scary decisions about their future–decisions they had been fighting about for weeks.
Then, Chris vanishes. The police think he’s run away, but Jessie doesn’t believe it. Chris is popular and good-looking, about to head off to college on a full-ride baseball scholarship. And he disappeared while going for a run along the river–the same place where some boys from the rival high school beat him up just three weeks ago. Chris is one of the only black kids in a depressed paper mill town, and Jessie is terrified of what might have happened.
As the police are spurred to reluctant action, Jessie speaks up about the harassment Chris kept quiet about and the danger he could be in. But there are people in Jessie’s town who don’t like the story she tells, who are infuriated by the idea that a boy like Chris would be a target of violence. They smear Chris’s character and Jessie begins receiving frightening threats.
Every Friday since they started dating, Chris has written Jessie a love letter. Now Jessie is writing Chris a letter of her own to tell him everything that’s happening while he’s gone. As Jessie searches for answers, she must face her fears, her guilt, and a past more complicated than she would like to admit.
My Thoughts: I received an e-arc from Netgalley, so my review is based off of that.
Be advised when deciding whether or not to read “This Is Not A Love Letter” by Kim Purcell, potentially triggering subjects are mentioned and talked about. Possible triggers for depression, suicide, mental illness, and self harm.
At first I was having a little bit of a hard time getting through it, but once I got to the part where Jessie’s boyfriend Chris went missing it got good. It was unputdownable at that point. It started out where I was even hopeful that he was alive, but the days went on. Day by day my hope dwindled as well as everyone’s in the book did.
I kept up a little hope especially when they didn’t find his body when they dragged the river, but then everyone got that stricken face after graduation. Everyone knew then that Chris wasn’t coming home. He wasn’t alive. He killed himself.
As you can imagine that is what left me in the feels. Part of me expected it once he went missing but another part of me was like nah he’s still alive.
Overall I loved this book, and recommend it to anyone who wants a good feels book. 🙂